congrads

12:55pm

I just woke up and I don't think I'm in the right space to do this but I hope I don't miss out anything. Anyway grad! First thing first it was cancelled, tragic :< 3 years for a big L but I'm over it already. Poly,poly,poly wasn't part of my path of life I wanted to take but I thank God for it because even though I was a JC reject bcos I screwed up O's pretty bad I had a lot of fun in secondary school and I wouldn't trade anything to live that kind of happiness again ngl even though I still had a "childish" mindset back then. So again I thank God for making me going through poly life, it definitely had a lot more bitter memories than sweet :-( It has helped me to grow so much sounds cliche but the close ones yall know!!! Realising that I have a lot of potential and that I was actually quite smart till now I still wish I used that strengths when I was studying for O's XD but now here I am being a potential big 3 U candidate even though they are overrated except for SMU(after poly I value applied learning more instead of traditional learning/teaching approach). Poly was so hard for me but it has shaped me for who I am today, I want to give special thanks to syed and nabs yall has helped me shape who I am too. First year of poly, I felt so alien bcos I'm used to being around malays and speaking malay(not trying to be racist or anything) but I was put in a more competitive environment and even though I never really enjoyed it bcos there were no close bonds build with classmates it was all about studies, it push me to do better which I didn't know I could I didn't know I had that fire in me. So I joined CCA, went for camps, overseas trip to forge a closer friendship with a grp a of ppl in poly and thank God I did but ngl not as close as my makcikcaks yall are the OG but then again different grp of friends bring out the different personality in me which I really don't mind. In Year 2 sem 1 to be xact, I got demotivated or maybe the right word was burnt out I was tired of carrying project grps :((( and I'm a responsible person I really can't neglect and my gpa dropped a bit then in y2sem2 I got back up again bcos I wasn't satisfied w my results and got motivated again and thank God it was of my pleasure and I must say I have lowered expectations of myself which is a good thing. I wasn't so affected w results anymore bcos I have accepted the fact that I did try my best and that is enough even though it was quite a difficult concept to grasp for me till now but alhamdulillah getting better Islam has been keeping grounded and satisfied <3 I didn't had struggle juggling between academics, CCA, relationships and all that bcos I'm quite a discipline person and good at time management so yeahh alhamdulillah. Fast forward to year 3 I had so much fun in TEP :')) It was the funnest part of my life in poly, like there was a good balance between academics and fun which I super likey!!!! And I did so well for TEP alhamdulillah hehe then intern came with intage the intern place that every SBM teachers know its hell and only hardworking students are being placed there Only GOD knows how much I suffered I really don't want to go in detail it is really a traumatizing period for me( I really had too many suicidal thoughts) but I'm so proud of myself even with the unhealthy mental health I pushed myself to the max I've nvr felt like I tried so hard before but I didn't get the results I wanted but I thank God for that we often forget to thank God for the not good times bcos it has made me appreciate myself a lil more and be reminded what Allah has given me is sufficient and at the end of the day intern has taught me a lot of things and has strengthen my mental health overall!! Bcos only aft that I had a drastic improvement regarding personal development especially w the break up and all really!!! THEN y3sem2 came it was hell ngl but not as hell as intern bcos of project modules but again I was already tough enough I think if I've not been in intage I wouldnt have had that energy to push through but it was the first time I flunk a test which again I felt so sad abt but I was happy at the same time bcos it was an indication that I manage to let myself rest literally but I ended the last sem w a bang!!! The last sem was more emotional than the rest maybe bcos of the modules and stuff but yayers. To conclude, I would like to wish happy grad to me and my friends especially those that have been so helpful to me met quite a lot of nice ppl still during poly even though mostly were MEH thank you so much guys and thank you God. Poly has been a milestone that I'm so proud of and all the struggles that I went through can't even put it into words but I'm glad for who I came out to be at the end of the day stronger and positive version of me. I used to be so pessimistic but I think I can proudly say I am an optimistic person now thanks to all the experiences and ppl and most importantly my religion. ❤️

Much Love, Mira

Jazakallahu Khairan